Lost

Hello,, hope you don't miss wayed .. Just miss me shwai :S ... I didn't post for quite a while I know. I didn't want to just post anything and I was busy. Now when I want to really know I was busy with what exactly I can't remember!! Weird haa!! Any way .. Sometimes you feel you are busy. This life every thing is moving so fast and you feel like running all the time to catch up and to finish tasks. Hard I know but if we didn't keep going we will be behind and no no nooooooo ,, no one wants to be behind.

من تردد ساعة العازه بطا
مايلاقي حزة الشده سنيد
دايم الدنيا ترى أخذ وعط
امن يفيد اليوم باكر يستفيد
الرفيق الصح سترك والغطا
ودرعك وسيفك على الخصم الضديد
لو على جمر الغضا لأجلك وطا
زعلتك حزنه وفرحك يوم عيد

thoughts

Its Monday and I don’t know why I consider this day middle of the week even its now considered just the second day! Yesterday I was so tired because I did not sleep the night before. I was awake from 1 am at night and I went to work and finished at 5 pm. Imagine me driving back home I was really sleepy! Once I arrived to my room I through myself on bed and crashed there. I had a good sleep el7mdellah but my sleeping schedule is ruin now. I have to stay awake today and try not sleep until after 9 pm.

Did anyone face a situation where you think you know someone and one day after a very long time together you discover that he is someone else, someone you don't know, someone you wish you never met! Sub7an Allah. Life is strange. The more you live, the more you see and most important learn. I hope I don't go thrugh this experience I just want to know people around just they way they are today. Because I love them just the way they are.

Few days ago, I spent a whole day with my nieces. They are so cute and I adore them. I like how they make me feel so special. They always tell me. Aunt, I want my hair to be just like yours and always complement me. They put me as their role model. It’s a responsibility because you want to be a good role model for them so they grow into good girls. However there is one special girl to my heart. When she looks at me I really want to take her in my arm and hug her forever. Her eyes can say thousand words by just one look at me. I love her and I love that look. She come close to me and set without saying anything and just smile. I smile back to her and keep looking at her. Allah bless her and her parents and I hope when I have a girl, I want her to just like this cute adorable girl.

P.S. "I Love you all, nephews and nieces"

Life

The past few days were so hard for me! I just faces the hard real world and a fact that I was not aware of. El7emdellah is the only word I can say. Sometimes I just feel so tried of everything. I just want to disapear and let the pain go away.

مالك رجى ياقلبي فيهم ولالي

حيله على نسيانهم لو تناسيت

راحوا وأنا عايش وحيد(ن) لحالي

تايه ولا لحظه بعدهم تهنيت

هذا جزا من كان يسهر ليالي

ياما عليهم في دجى الليل ونيت

لجل الوفا أشقيت فكري وبالي

كلـ(ن) نسى الماضي وانا أقول ياليت

راح الزمان الي نعيمه صفالي

مثل السراب الي من أجله تعنيت

صار الشقا والهم فوق احتمالي

عقب اتصافي بالتجافي تجازيت

ماباقي إلا ذكرهم في خيالي

ذكرى تجيني كل مصبحت ومسيت

ياقلب لا تبكي على ضيم حالي

انسى ترا مالك رجا وإن ترجيت

Sleepless

I wrote this blog last night --->>

Its 4:11 am and I can't sleep, I spent my whole night watching "Grey's Anatomy" catching up with all the episodes I didn't see in season 2. I believe it's the best season for this show yet. I can't wait to finish it. I feel sick today and was not myself at work yesterday. Sometimes at the office when ppl start a conversation with me I just want to say please leave me alone. I can't talk and I can't think and I don't have the energy to react with them. It's really bad to feel like this but sometimes I really can't however, I force myself to be polite enough to do what I have to do.

Since this cold season started the first thing I do when I get in to my car in the morning I check the temperature and take a photo of it. I did when it rained in the middle of Jan for few days but I have so many pics for the temp. interesting haa!! when I take this photo I laugh at myself but iam still doing it I don't know ,, I just want to see what was the lowest degree of the weather. The lowest day was last morning it was 8 degree and the sun was there!!! Sub7aan Allah the weather is really changes here.

I can't believe that I did not go to desert trip this winter. Everyone is busy in the family but I am not sure why they are so busy?!! Everyone says we need to go to a trip together and no one moves. Before I was arranging the trips do the communication make sure who is going and where to go and what we need for the trip. NOW I don't want to play this part. It's very hard :)...
Hopefully we can catch the winter and enjoy it in the great quit desert with the cold night and the sky will be full of starts and just set there and watch the starts chatting till you went to deep sleep!!
I think I need to go to bed. I guess I will have a very busy day tomorrow. I need to do so many things work wise and personal. Wish you a great weekend! Enjoy it and have fun.

P.S. It's nice to stay late not thinking!!!

Cold.. Brrrrrd

Good Morning, I am at work now. I shouldn't blogging at work but I couldn't resist this nice weather and how bored i am feeling right now and all the ideas in my head pushing me to write :S.

what a nice weather haa .. It's wired to us to face this weather. We are not used to these cold, windy days. I saw and felt the real cold weather in the desert but not her in AD. But I like it to a change. We can dress in really winter clothes. Jackets, sweater, long boots and shoal hmmmm interesting. The temperature was 14 WooooW. Its really cold guys, I just feel like being in my bed under my warm colorful brnoo9, drinking hot tea with milk, reading or browsing the net. I am so sleepy today I want to sleep for a whole day and I won't miss it at all. Any one wants to join me.

Good luck all and enjoy the nice weather.

I got to rush to my course, bbye

Obsession

How a person can be obsessed with something so quickly. Since I started this blog and i can't think of something else other than what to write how to improve it and lets make this change here and there. however, thinking so much stopped me from writing anything for 2 days. i don't like to ditch my blog and all. I want to be an active blogger who publish regularly.

February started today, this means that I have 1 more month and I finish my probation period. i not so worried about the result of my three months time. I am worried about the report that I have to submit at the end of my first three months. imagine I have to write what I have learned and what achievements and contributions I did for my job. I CAN NOT REMEMBER. This is my problem I should write every single thing I did in a list so I won't forget. Let's hope that I remember when the time of the report come and start writing at least from now.

I started oracle course in our company, I luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuv this course a lot. It brings all the university memories back to me. I guess I did not mention that I am IT graduate not working in IT. This makes me a very lucky person. I like IT but I believe I can't work in IT for the rest of my life. Having IT background helps my career a lot. I can use my skills to improve work performance.

Now back to the oracle course, I kinda like the instructor. He is very intelligent mashallah 3laih. And we are learning a lot. Taking this course will improve my career since i will take more resposibilities. Handling huge amount of data. The course is extended for another week which is more than great. There is one reason why I like this course; it's a get away from the empty office that I work in.